I am going to tell a story...quick though...might give you some insight on some things that have gone through my head (and other heads of people that are bigger) . Today we went to honors convocation at our main campus (where they give awards to students). Ever since last year..I have dreaded going...but for selfish reasons. When you are bigger person...there are so many things that go through your mind when you are out in public...but it is not something I have shared with lots of people. The convocation was held in the auditorium. Last year..I was very nervous because the seats looked small (for a normal person they are not) but for me they did. I was able to sit in the seat (relief...in that situation...but there have been times when I didn't (not a good feeling))...but seats are a concern when you are a bigger person. I was very uncomfortable in the seat and really couldn't move. My arms didn't even fit on the armrests...I felt like I was on top of the seat and bulging overtop. This year was different...I about cried. I sat down and I was like "whoa"...I have more room and my arm fit on the armrest...was a great feeling. I turned around and hugged my friend Kim. I was so happy and felt good about myself. I still go into a restaurant and do a scan...looking at the chairs/booths and always wonder...will I fit or not. It is a horrible a feeling...and I can't wait to the day comes I fit into everything.
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This past week I went to support group (I am so thankful that they offer this)...I didn't say anything...but I learned so much. I have never been to something like AA but I imagine it is kinda like that. We sit in a circle, share our name and state if we are post or pre op. It is an open discussion..and I love how the topics change. This week I learned so much...that everyone is not perfect and that some of the struggles that I have been having..they are having too. I always come away refreshed... This week they did share a blog...http://theworldaccordingtoeggface.blogspot.com/. I love it...she talks about her journey (she had bariatric surgery) and shares tons of recipes. I tried a few out this week...and the family loved them. I really liked the pizzas...yumo. I have listed the recipes below...but you can also find them on her blog.
I have also been doing a lot of thinking...in particular my habits. One of my habits (it is an old one) but I find myself walking back in the kitchen and grabbing stuff to eat...and not think about it. Now I still go into the kitchen..but I am thinking more and not grabbing but sometimes the urge is there. So I have come up with another POA (plan of action) - I have decided I am going to be a planner instead of a grabber. Meaning...If I have my meals planned out for family and me (I am planning 6 for me a day...which are very small)...I will not go to the fridge or kitchen and just grab something I don't need or shouldn't need. Just need to stick with a plan.... So I have done some research and I think I have the design..just need to create on computer and go from there. So I have a plan...love to have plans...and will see what I can come up with.
Shelly's Italian Chicken Salad
rotisserie chicken
1 cucumber, diced
1 stalk celery, sliced (I didn't have this so I doubled my cucumber amount)
1/4 of red onion, diced
2 green onions, diced
12 cherry tomatoes, halved
2 tbsp of fresh basil, chipped
1/2 of 13.75 oz can of artichoke hearts, chopped (I didn't use this either..didn't have any on hand)
2 roasted red and yellow peppers (I didn't use this either..none on hand)
2 tbsp pistachios
Dressing
3 oz greek yougart (I have Greek God's Greek Yougart, plain)
2 tbsp pesto sauce
1 tbsp of mayo
1 tbsp Parmesan cheese
s/p
Mix together and enjoy...next time I will take pictures...
Shelly's Chicken Carbonara Tortilla Pizza
1 Mission Carb Balance Whole Wheat 6" fajita size tortilla (I couldn't find this brand but I did find LaTortilla Factory Low Carb High Fiber made with whole wheat..50 calories for one)
leftover chicken..had some rotisserie chicken leftover from the other night
tsp of alfredo sauce
slice of provolone
sauteed mushrooms
1 1/2 slice of pancetta
sprinkle italian seasoning and Parmesan cheese on top
Bake at 350 for 10 minutes.
Shelly's Irish Tortilla Pizza
tortilla (like above)
slice of Havarti cheese
corn beef (from deli)
green onions
sprinkle italian seasoning and Parmesan cheese on top
Bake at 350 for 10 minutes
You can find more recipes on her blog...they were really good...yumo!!!
I hope everyone has a great weekend coming up... We will be busy... I will update again on Monday..hopefully will have rough draft of planner by then..
Thanks so much to you all.. I really appreciate all the thoughts and prayers.. I also have a request tonight...please say a prayer for my dear friend Kim..her husband Todd and their son Tyler. Todd has brain tumors and they are inoperable. I have pasted her blog below..and you can follow along. http://toddkimandtyler.blogspot.com/
Love to all,
Lora
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